All Choice is Made From Fear or Love.

“He who is not everyday conquering some fear has not learned the secret of life.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Fear is one hell of a thing… Fear has caused me to overcome the greatest of obstacles, and has caused me to fold under the smallest of tasks.  Fear led me to all I have in this life, most of which is regret.

In love, I walked away from it all.  In love, I dream of a new way of living.  In love, I started this blog.  In love, I want to be seen.  In love, I dare to follow my faith.  In love, I try to live each day of my life moving forward.  Every day I take even the smallest step toward hope; toward the life I was meant to live.

How do we take actions guided by love and not fear?  We don’t decide to wake up one day and live without fear.  We don’t wake up and decide to only live in love and hope.  Today, and for the past few days, I’ve struggled with fear.  I’m afraid to love.  I’m afraid to forgive myself for things I’ve done.  I’m afraid to let go of excuses.  I’m afraid of being alone.  I’m afraid I’ll one day have to abandon my dreams.  I’m afraid my life will fall apart again.  I’m afraid of hope…

What do I do?  Give up?  Push ahead?  A GREAT life is not for everyone.  Life is full of choices and I choose love.  But sometimes I get scared.  Sometimes I get frustrated, tired, angry, disappointed, heart-broken, rejected, humiliated, insulted, crapped on, etc.  That’s life!  I remind myself, with the support of people I love, I am confident that I can get through this… When confidence fails me I remind myself that with God’s grace I can achieve anything my heart desires.  God’s grace makes the fear tolerable.  Push through the fear.  Fear cannot overtake love and hope; Love and hope must be sacrificed to fear… Don’t surrender all that is possible in your life guided by what your heart tells you.  Live your life guided by love.